Today was a big day for me, you could say a fresh start, maybe some of you can relate! Today I cut my hair and it was a big deal, I’ve had long hair my whole life and the more I think about it the more I realized it was not always for the right reasons. You could say it was sort of a security blanket for me, a way to hide, yet it wasn’t really hiding! I literally opened up an emotional can of worms when I cut my hair.
“I opened an emotional can off worms when I cut my hair!”
Why do we place so much of our self-worth on the physical? I truly wish I had the answer. You may also view this topic to be completely contradictory considering the fact I have put myself in front of the very critical eye of the camera lens for my business. Well let me be totally transparent with you, I struggle and I mean struggle after every photo shoot when I come face to face with me, myself and I.
I don’t think I remember a time in my life where I looked in a mirror and said “I look awesome” how sad is that really? When was the last time you thought, spoke or even mumbled those words to yourself? Think about that for a minute! If you haven’t, start now, you have the power to change how “YOU” view yourself, be kind, you deserve it.
After I cut my hair I got in the car and hesitantly adjusted the review mirror, hoping to not be disappointed by the reflection. Do you ever have an image in your head of what you look like than see a picture and it disappoints you? Why is that?
From adolescence on our sense of self image is formed though a series of cultural ideals, life experiences and comments from others. It’s really a combination of emotion and circumstance that builds up the bulk of our self perception.
I read an article once referring to your self image like an old dress or suite that you have outgrown, today I decided to pack up that old dress. I’m not going to be overwhelmed anymore, the measuring cups have gone away, I’ve filled them up with negative, useless thoughts and dumped them out.
We are inundated every minute of everyday with images programming our subcontious to look, feel and act a certain way to be accepted, we can’t trick ourselves into thinking we can get away from it but we can train ourselves to “ACCEPT”and “LOVE”. I have three beautiful little girls whom I want to grow up with a strong sense of self and realize how important they are to this world, that each one of them is beautiful and unique, they are a gift!
My gift to my girls will be a momma who is healthy, happy and lives in a positive light, who doesn’t hide behind a blanket of hair, who runs through the sprinkler cloths and all on a hot day, who forgets to do her hair and make up and goes the grocery store, a momma who looks in the mirror and says “I look awesome today”.
Now don’t get me wrong, I am passionate about fashion, beauty and fitness but that is not everything I am, everything I am is much, much more and I am learning to view her the way I view my girls, beautiful inside and out.
Do me a favour, next time you see a picture of yourself or you catch a glimpse of your reflection, say “You look awesome” !
Bag: Rebecca Minkoff
Booties: Steve Madden
Sunglasses: H&M (also love these ASOS)